Stoppping ..

what I'm feeling before I get hurt even more . I've been hurt too many times in life . Shld I like him ? Or shld I jst staay as liking no one . & forgetting every niggga out there . Jst staying me . Talking to no nigga , cos I dnt need a nigga to make me happy . They jst bring me down in the long run . What do you think ? Wait , no . I need to figure this out on my own ... Take a chance & possibly get hurt , or stop the feelings now & save myself the drama ? Iddeek .

Tday was arright . A minimum day . I wsnt happy abt my jeans , but w/e . Haha . Staayed till 4 , agen . Like the usual . It went by faast thou . Haha . Then went to Costco , got home , took a shwr , then ate (: Yuuuuum . Right now ? Texting . Using mommy's phone . Hellllla thinking shit out right now thou . Hmm , we'll see . w/e happens , happens . Right ?

Have you ever felt like you keep getting yourself into situations thaat you have to compete w/ someone all the time ? Shieeet , nigga . Tell me abt it . Haha , going thru it right now . I can stand it . But I kno he feels the same , but then why do I still feel like I have to compete to get your attention ? Ahhh , do ykno whhy ? Cos I sure dnt . But idddk , w/e . Thaat's jst how life is . & this is one thing I gtta strt doing agen . Not stopping till I get whaat I want . Cos I wna find the one alrdy . If he dnt do the same fr me , then kick thaat nigga to the curb . Shiiit . Ya feeee mee ?

Wish List part 1 .

Get me these & I'll love you forever (: Haha .

Aye doe .

Where do i begin ? Ahhh , I kno . So lemme tell you a lil bit wsp in my life . I like to tell stuff abt myself , so ppl can understand me better . But I dnt tell the whole story . Jst the basics .

Arright . So I went out w. this one nigga & after we broke up , she's been givin' me hellla attitude . Taking my cousin away like thaat thou ? Wtf ? & she's mad at me cos I broke up w/ him . Tf ?! It has NOTHING to do w/ her & she's jst gna hella hate on me . But w/e . She wna lose a friend , fuck it then . I knew shit like this was gna happen . She jst dnt understand me thou . W/e .
Hm , another story ? Ideeek . Haha , schooo ? It's going good I guess . Getting them good grades .
Family ? Good (: Haha .
Guys ? Not looking right now . Shocking ? Nahh . Haha .


HOMECOMING !
pwahaha , I'm so excited fr thaat ! Haaaa , SIIIIIIKE ! I jst want a new dress (: Iddk which one to get thou . Gna go shopping fr it soon thou .

Btw , NO PHONE ! It broke ):

To Dominic

Happy MUUUUFUCKIN' bday best friend ! Love you A&F (: Haha . Hope you haad a good day ! Haha . I was planning ot take another picture w/ you , but I cldnt find you afterschool ): I still love you thou ! Hope you enjoyed this . Haha . Bye .

Trynnnnna .

Trynna find thaat fuckin' song thou . Iddk if yoou ever heard it . " you a freak " Iddk who it's by so it makes it harder . Blaah .
& I'm trynna figure out whaat I want in life & iddk if him being in it is the best thing right now . I hellla neeeda think thiings thru fr a bit . Cos , yeaah . It's jst too much to handle right now . But iddk if I'll make it thru . We'll see . w/e happens , happens . Gtta think things thru thou .

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Our first picture (: Isn't it cuute . Hahahaha ! Props to Joanne ! My sister in law / daughter . Hahahaha ! This nigga is the sweetest & cutest guy ever ! He's a fuckin' sophomore . 5'11" (: My typa guy . I'm his first Gf . Happy as fuck abt thaat . takin' things slow this time . I'm happy to be taken frm him . He's mine ladies , so please BACK THE FUCK OFF ! & I'm his niggas . So do the same . Thaaanks (: Haha . Welll , what is there to talk abt ? Idek .

Well , now I kno ! I went to fuckin' 4 parties this wkend . Crazy , right ?! Haha . Shiiiit , it was hellla funn . Esp Saturday . I went to a party in AC & we watched Mayweather vs. Marqueze . Or however you spell it & it was funny . Cos the adults were all yellin & sreaming & what not . Like , wtf ? They can't even hear you . Hahahaha ! & there was this one nigga thaat tried spittin' game . But it ddnt wrk . Cos my heart only belongs to JonnieMF'Sendaydeigo ! Hahahahahah ! Yes yes , best believe it does (: & he's mine & only mine ! Uhm , anything else ? Thaas abt it . Hahaha , oh yeaah . Friday was my mommy's bday ! Happy bday mommy ! I loooove you !

New things ?

Nothing is really kno if you wna kno . Haha . Everything is the same old same old stuff . But one thing is fr sure , PPL NEEDA STOP TALKING SHIT ! Well , yeaah . Haha . Jst needed to get tht out . Hm , OH ! I used to talk to Jeremy , but cousin ddnt approve ): So now , I'm jst going w/ the flow . It's kinda hard not to like this one guy . I'd tell you the whoole story , but I'm kinda tired now , so I'ma gna go now . I'll write mre tmo . Byeee !

Ice Cream !

Tday I did ... nothing ! I made ice cream thou , so tht counts as something thou . Well , what can I say ? I'm talking to this guy & he's the sweetest thing ever (: He's hella chill & he's cute too . + he's a christian ! JACKPOOOOOT !! Heeeeeeey ! Haha , uhm .. I'ma keep this short & simple fr now . I'm tired of the long ones . Haha , + I have nothing to say . well , yeaah ! Bye now .

Where I wish I can go to ..

The place I wna go mst is , faaar away frm here . I jst wna take a break / vacation frm everything ! Esp things tht bring me down , I wna get away frm the mst . Jst all of a sudden , all this grief came upon my shoulders . & lately , I've been ignoring my feelings & been paying attention to others . Trying to make everyone happy in mst ways possible is hard . I kno it sounds like I'm being a ppl leaser , but it's mre like helping them out w/ their own problems . Trying to make everything better in their life . Putting others before myself .. I hide my inner feelings & make everyone think I'm happy , when honestly , I'm not . I stuck in a world where everyone is superficial & you cnt find who's real & who's fake nowadays . Jst wishing tht I can go bck in time to when I was in Kindergarten & not giving a fck abt anything but sleeping , eating , & finger painting . NO guys at all . Ykno ? But not everything can go the way I expect them to go .. Cos if everything did , then life wld boring . Am I right ? Pretty mch . & right now , in between 3 guys ... I'm trying to be friends w/ everyone , & I'm trying to to stay away frm guys , but they jst come outta no where . Geeeze -____- I jst needa break & a vacation . Take me somewhere ... The closest place I have to leaving the real world are my dreams ...