YOUR DADDY IS HOME.

It's 7:38 & I'm pretty much bored. I'm just chilling with my cousin & I'm in dire need of something to do. I guess we're going to watch Inglorious Bastards, just because Deej hasn't seen it yet.

It's the last day of 2009 :O Can you believe it? I can't. This year went by too fast , but I guess that's how life goes. Ever since I watched 2012, I've been super paranoid! I hella want the days & years to go by slower. But then again, being christian, we never know when God will come again. Hopefully it's later than sooner. I'm not ready for him to come yet. I still need to fulfill my commitment.

Blogging has became a daily grind for me & I think it's only cos I always have so much to say. I'm always talking a lot -.- I guess that can be a good thing thou. You'll never get bored if you have a conversation with me though (: Most Definitely! Haha.  But it's been some what awhile since I've vented.

Today, as I was laying in bed with my cousin, I realized that you never know what you have till it's gone. 2009 is coming to a close end & ever since November, I lost someone that meant a lot to me. I honestly miss him, but in the process of losing him, I hurt someone that I never wanted to hurt ever. & all though I was at fault, he put all the blame on him. I feel so bad for doing that to both of them. I honestly miss him & I wish that we could still be able to talk as friends. I just pray that he'll open sometime soon & just say hi. But I'll always remember the day he smiled at me :D Oh how I miss so much.
Also today, I felt so bad because I had someone stuck in my head.. It's just that ever since Tuesday, he's been stuck there... "/ but I don't want to be feeling some guy that probably doesn't even feel back, you know? Man oh man.. Just typing this is making me sad. So I think I'ma stop right here. Thanks for reading, stalkers (:

w/<3, Casey.

Happy New Years Eve ! (:

This year is coming to a close end & I'm glad to say that I'm happy with everything that went down this year, it made me the person I am today. It taught me life lessons & I met some of the dopest people I ever met. I got to experience new things & they were incredible. I got to go to Tsunami, I started a new hobby, & I've became stronger than I ever have been. Ever since summer, I've realized that I don't need anyone to make me happy except myself & God. But it's alwaays nice to know that you have people to be there with you to be happy. 2009 was a good year though, I'm not going to lie. I may have had my ups & downs but I still managed to make it through. I may have also lost friends, but I gained new ones. & I've also built a bridge & got over things with people. We made a truce & became close. Weird, but it happened. & for whoever was with me through thick & thin, I want to thank you for all your love & support through it all (:

& just cos Deja keeps bugging me about this & just cos she's my favorite cousin & the fact that she's sitting next to me & making me laugh, I want to say thanks Deja, for everything (: & only cos you put the hat on wrong & asked if you looked Canadian (x ahahahahahaha! I FREAAKING LOVE YOU !

TSUNAMI 2009.

Tsunami 2009 was the best experience of my life, if not the best. It was something worth going to. It made the biggest impact on my life & I'll never forget that experience. I do plan on going to next years because it was just so much fun. I was feeling closer to God than I ever had ever. It was something you should try yourself. I went there leaving home with so much attitude given towards my mom & my grandma. & after being there & experiencing what I experienced, I broke down my wall & let God take over me again. I am a christian, I do believe in him personally & going to Tsunami has definitely changed my life around. It was an amazing experience.

My time at Tsunami was really spent well. I made a lot of new friends & saw plenty familiar faces. I also got to see The Afters (x whooo! They were totally awesome! & the Travis Ryan Band was there. I find the lead singer amazingly attractive for some apparent reason (x The services were good. The worships were amazing. Group 1 Crew was definitely awesome. The Travis Ryan band was dope as well. Also The Afters, whoooo! The songs touched me like no other. I praised God like I've never had before. It was just an amazing experience that I want to live all over again. Hopefully I can go next year (:

Well, some of you might be like, "what the heck is Tsunami?!" So Tsunami is this Christian Youth Convention & you stay there for three days. They have these classes which they call "Hot Topics" & you have three/four sessions you go to. & you can pick what topics you want to learn more about so that way you don't have to go to a class that you'll be bored of. & they also have General Sessions which is basically a two & a half hour service. & on Tuesday night they had The Afters perform (: whoo! Then we did an offering & we raised $8000.00 for the missions & that covers for 16 missionaries. It's amazing & an amazing experience. I would personally suggest that you try it out, if you haven't accepted Christ to be your one & only God, Tsunami is the place to go to. It will open your heart & mind & most definitely it WILL transform you. The topics they talk about for Hot Topics are super engaging. They even have a dance class, but of course, it's God related. So after dancing, we had a short bible study. The subjects they had for General Session were really good! The one that stood out to me was the topic about sex, haha! But no lie, they were interesting, you won't get tired at all & it's fun. You meet people from everywhere. Esp if you do a scavenger hunt. It's a good way to meet new people & conversate. The best way to do the scavenger hunt is to take a picture with them. Haha! It was over all fun.

But maaan, 4 hours of sleep each night was crazy! BEASTIN' THOOOU. Got to the house at like 12, stayed up till 1 or 2 then waking up at 6/6:30 was brutal! But it's all for God. The best thing about it all was that we were doing it for God. & now this is the test for me to ace. I need to continue following God. I renewed my commitment & I plan to keep following through with it. Thank God for everything you have given me & I pray to you that you cleanse me for all the sins I have committed. For the sins I'm aware & not aware of. I praise you & glorify you cos you are the one & only God, the alpha & omega. & dear God, I put all my faith in you.


***I DON'T HAVE ANY PICTURES ): I'LL GET THEM FROM JAHZAIL, HOPEFULLY.

Inglorious Bastards

 This was another movie that I personally liked you. You could agree or disagree, but it was a good movie. It's funny how Hollywood can do whatever they want to make a movie. How they played around with the history of WWII is actually quite entertaining. Brad Pitt did an alright job. Ok, I'm lying. He was good at what he was doing. They way he made that accent sound very real. But might I say, there was just too much blood. But what do you expect? It's WWII. My favorite scene was when she was planning to a suicidal attempt which was also a plan to kill the Germans. For she was a Jew & she happened to be dating a German. Freaking Nazi! The "Inglorious Bastards" were the Jews that killed Germans, they would scalp them, & Brad Pitt had made marks on their foreheads. For his memorable line was, "You can take off your uniform, but I will give you something that you can never take off." Then it shows him taking his knife & making the Nazi sign on their foreheads. It was good movie, quite entertaining. Go watch it! You'll probably enjoy. It's kind of weird, but that's how I like it.  &+ what do you really expect? It's a film by Quentin Tarantino.

Star Trek

I know it's too late to do a review, but I just got done watching it. & lemme tell you, it got me hooked. No lie. Something I actually won't mind watching again. The special effects were amazing. & as my auntie Trish has said, "Star Trek is AWWWESOME!" Haha, hands down, I agree. Jim Kirk is so sexy! Whoo! Amazingly handsome. But I have to give my props to the special effects team, they did a magnificent job. Details were amazing. Maybe cos my TV setting is at it's highest. I got that 55" Samsung LED TV. It's pretty light. But anway, the movie was good. The fighting scenes were planned out well. Like I have said before, something I won't mind watching again. Wna watch it? Hit me up! This is the type of movie I like. It's funny, exciting, & most def it got my attention. Which is good because I can tend to have a short attention spand xD hahahahaha! But overall, I give it two thumbs up.

Cause I Been Diagnosed With Love

Lately, I've been very emotional & I feel horrible because I take it out on Cris. I don't even know what's wrong me. I'm not anywhere near my period O.o Ahhh, I don't know. I'm sorry though babe for being a bitch to you ): I'm still working on tryna control my feelings & most def my mouth -_____-' I gotta watch what comes out of it before I have to start eating my words. Blaap. I was so out of it last night. I stayed up till like 3:30. & I was just so ugh. I was crying for stupid shit, I have the lowest self esteem ever, I'm just so blaah! I can't even be descriptive of how I feel about myself right now. It's just that all of a sudden, I feel ugly & I feel fat.. My acne is getting better at least, but yet I still feel like shit. I look at all the girls he use to talk to & there's one in particular that makes me feel completely U-G-L-Y! Like you don't even know how I feel when I see pictures of her, she's like gorgeous & I'm completely ugly compared to her.. * siiiiiiigh. Maaaayn, I don't know. It's just very depressing.. I find myself wanting to put make up on me because I think I'll be prettier or whatever. But nothing.. "/ I still feel like complete shit. So yeah, basically you can say my self esteem is at it's all time low.. & it doesn't help much when I hear my grandma saying such critical things about me.. Depressed? No. Upset? Yes. Not happy with myself? HAAYL FUCKING YES!

Jockin' Mike D to my dismay.

In life , you need one thing to survive. Simply the ability to realize that SHIT HAPPENS. You step in it. You accept it. Get the fuck over it & keep walking.

Just when I thought things were good again

I thought wrong. I spoke too soon. There's no peace in this house for me between me & my grandma. We're arguing constantly & I don't know how much more I can take of it. Whenever she says negative things about me or whenever she yells at me, I take it in but damn straight I don't take it to heart. Since the beginning of November, we haven't been seeing eye to eye & I just ignore the things she says about me, but I don't know how long that will last till I just explode on her. I'm tired of her! I honestly am. I'm tired of hearing the harsh criticism I get on a daily from her. I just can't take it anymore. I feel like I get a slap in the face everyday. I cover up everything, but when I hear it from her, it's all bad. I'm just a teen trying to live in my OWN home.

MERRY MF' CHRISTMAS! (:

Christmas was the best Christmas ever so far (: & it's funny cos at first I was saying/complaining that it didn't feel like Christmas & surprisingly enough, I had a little of spirit in me for it (: Cris came over for Christmas :D & it was spent well with him. We always find a way to see each other :D & I'm glad! Next, he just needs to drive so I can see him more often, or my brother needs to drive so he can drive me anywhere! Yee cuddy! Well, for Christmas, I didn't get exactly what I wanted, but the fact that I got to spend Christmas with the family & my boyfriend, that's all I can ask for. & Christmas isn't just about the family, fun, drinks, & presents. It symbolizes something way beyond that. The birth of Jesus Christ himself. But lemme tell you about Christmas Eve & Christmas Day.

Christmas Eve; I went to church at 7, at North Hills. YES, I am a christian. Then we got home at like 7:40. There was no service. It was just like a worship time. We sang & listened to people read verses from the bible. They were really good. & the best part about the whole thing is that I like the theme & setting that they had to offer. The whole place was decorated with wreaths, lights, flowers, & candles. Vicky was one of the candle lighters (: & when we were worshiping, the had the lights out & it was just the Christmas lights & the candles that gave us light. & of course the projector. & at the end, we had candles that we needed to get before going in, & at the end, we were passing the fire around, lighting our candles. & it was just really nice. I enjoyed it. Then when we got home, family started coming. My cousins, auntie, uncles, & my cousin brought his friends who kept looking at me -_____-' but overall, it was spent well (: we were hella drunk thou. We were like messed up & we had no idea what we were doing. The only thing I remember is me running into things. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! We were in the kitchen, some were in the garage, others were singing karaoke & they were bothered by how clear our TV is. Haha, it's "too detailed". Even Cris was bothered by it (x Then it was 12! Presents (: I got me a new iPod. The Nano with the camera (x jealous? Jk! I wanted the touch, but I'm still happy. Afterwards, we ate some good ass prime rib! We had other things, but I can't remember. Hahahaha!

Christmas; I woke up early cos the little ones were screaming & yelling cos they were happy with their presents (: goood! We were cooking, I was trying to recover from last night, & it was successful. I eventually got ready, started texting Cris, & Aj had opened his presents & me & my mom started playing with his legos, pwahahahha! It was pretty fun, but my mom screwed somewhere & I tried fixing it, but I ended up making the same mistake she did. So I gave up. After that, Cris came over (: YAAAY! & it was spent well with him. We also went outside to look at my view. The place where he told me that he loves me :D hahaha! Never forget that place. I love him thou & I always will (; Then we opened presents again. I got a North Face Back Pack (x , more pajamas (my favorite) , & $$$$$. Next thing to get is a Nikon. Fuuuuck, I'm in need of a new camera! Like really. Baby tried fixing my camera, but he couldn't.. it's really broken "/ oh well. Then everyone left. Me & Cris started watching Marley & Me, but we weren't paying attention. We kept talking. Then he left at like almost 10 ): Then I knocked out on the couch for like 5 minutes. HAHHAHA, then Cris called (: & I went upstairs & fell asleep on him. Haaah. But overall, Christmas a spent well :D

HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

Just the way I like it (: Family is here, thought I would just blog while nothing is happening right now. I hope you all have a great, fun, safe, & peaceful holidays! Well, the family is making me play my flute. I'll upload pictures later. Or on the 26th. Look out for them (; Bye loves!

I'll even let you hold the remote control.

It's Christmas Eve. Doppe. Pictures will be up by, MAYBE, the 26th. I have to get ready soon, but I thought I would speak of my thoughts. So, I was doing dishes, agen & I couldn't help but sing "I Did You Wrong" by Pleasure P. & my baby is awfully in love with one of my pictures (x Hahahaha! He says it's "sexy". Pwhahaha! Oh well, I guess. Well, yeah. I have church at 7, be back at home with a house full of family at 8. Yeee. Hella excited. Even though it doesn't feel like Christmas, I'm still up for trying to make everyone feel like it is. Gna have the time of my life with my family. & sadly, I didn't get to see Cris tday ): But yeaup, I take quite awhile to get ready. So I'm boutta dip. Dueces.

SAY WHAAAAAA?!

Mennen is in Alaska O.o Buh .. I thought he wld be in Sf? Oh geeeze... Idek what to think anymore.. As long as he keeps in touch, I'll be fine. Just be a good boy out there. I mean, you should. Because what kind of shit can you get into at a place like Alaska?

Omg, where are my manners?

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE TO ALL (: HAVE A GOOD & SAFE HOLIDAY.



Save the dates of; Dec. 31, 2009 (New Years Party) & January 8, 2010 (Birthday Dinner).

I wna work at Starbucks (x

So I tried out Tumblr & that didn't last very long. I had that thing since summer & I jst now tried it. Well, last night really. Hahahah. But yeah, I'ma sticking with you Blogspot (:

Call me Jordan, 4th quarter in '92.

Man oh man, I'm awfully tired & it's only 10:41. Wth? Hahaha! I think it's cos in the beginning of it all, I did absolutely NOTHING -______-' & then all of a sudden, I was boosted up into the City life & raided the streets :P it was amazing! I love my hometown (; "Go Love Your Own City". My thoughts, exactly.

28-30, I'ma be gone! I'm gna be out in San Jose. MAYBE. If I don't miss my ride xD hahahaha! If I miss it, I'ma try & get to Cris'. Pwahahaha! But yes, gna posted in San Jose on the 28th through the 30th for this Christian Youth Convention called Tsunami. It's amazingly fun (; I'm excited for it, indeed I am. But it sucks cos of curfew -_____-' lights out at 11:45, EXACT! Can you believe it? But it's good enough, because I'll probably be tired as fuuuh (x Tsunami is great opportunity for me & others to get closer to God. They have amazing Christan bands over there. It's like rock type of thing. Something I won't normally listen to, but I just pay attention to the lyrics & it's sweet music to my hears. It's pretty cool too, cos then they have classes, games, & so much more to offer (x I'm like uuber excited! My brother is a weenie cos he isn't going ): Oh well. It'll be nice to meet new people as well. Whoop de doo! But I probably won't be texting Cris as much as I would like to, but it's for a good cause. I'ma miss you babe. Well, I already do miss you xD Can't wait to see you tmo! Wheeeeeee (: hahahah!
Well, I'm tired, so I guess I'm off to bed. Night blogspot!

Btw, I'm sorry Blogger, I'm thinking of switching to Tumblr..

Oh, how I'm gna miss this nigga.

Mennen Mennen Mennen. What did you get yourself into? I know I've blog about this nigga before, but really, I'm gna miss him helllla! He had me crying soo bad last night! & I'm srry I didn't call you back D: I hope I get to see you too. Just promise me to that you'll be a good boy out there so you can come back in February. I know it isn't my part to blame, but I feel like I have failed you & your mom in so many ways. I could've at least tried to keep you out of trouble. But in the end, no matter what, it'll be your choice in what you wna do. If you wna hang out with those goons & gangsters, be my guest. But you also have to think long term. How will they benefit you in the future? Thank God that you have so much more friends beyond them. Like me. I hate how you're leaving on bad terms with people. How I wish that you & Mike would be cool again. You both are always telling me how that will never happen, but I just have so much hope in you guys. There will be a point in time where I know that you two will be like how you guys were in the past. I wish that you never got what you wanted. Because look it now, Don got his nose broken, you're moving to Sf, I'm getting left behind, you can't even spend Christmas & New Years with you parents. But Mennen, you're a good guy & yeah, you are a smart guy , but sometimes you don't think things through clearly. You're always thinking of what you want & how it will satisfy you so much, & you never think about the consequences & how it will hurt yourself & others in the long run. Whether or not it happens right away, it'll end up hurting someone eventually. I guess you moving has it's benefits, but it sucks that I won't see you till summer or February. Just be a good boy & promise that you will do whatever it takes to keep you out of that bull. Keep in touch always, & promise me, so you can come back in Feb. I love you too much to let more shit happen to you. Hopefully when you come back, you're changed for the better. Yeah, people have told you the truth about how they feel about you, but you're still leaving us. I'm glad to know that I'll always be your little sister (: you mean so much to me & thanks for helping me through whatever it was I was going through. & you're welcome for helping you out too. It was all out of love & not by choice. I helped because I loved you & it wasn't really a choice or option. I'll never forget the day you told me about your dad & the day you showed me how white your feet are (x HAHAHAHAHA! Them were the days. & you have amazing vocals (; hahahaha! ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH , never forget those days you sang to me. The days you rapped. Those days where we would always laugh about some shit over something helllla stupid. The day you came over for the Pacquiao fight. & the day you brought me Spam Musubi but ended up eating one of them! -_______-' Hahahahaha! & OH! OH! OH! The day you called me crying & you had me crying & the night you told me about your whoole life. Those were the days that brought us closer together. I'll also never forget your crying face & how you would say, " I almost shitted myself." , "I almost died, Casey." hahahahaha! Never forget that. Hope to see you soooon! Our last day spent together was funny. How you kept throwing that ball at me head xD hahaha, I'ma get you back one day! Well, this is it for now. I love you Mennen Meneses Jr. Never "good byes", alwaays "see you later".

with ever lasting love from your little sister that'll never forget you;

Casey Ann McCormick Dollentas Endriga.

This shit is soooo annoying !

^^^ Says it all .

MY OH MYYY. BEAUTIFUL!

Props to MEE! (; Taken by me! How I would kill to have this view. Just to be able to watch the sun set every beautiful summer night. & as Jenn said it; "Every beautiful days has their sunsets."

It comes naturally.

REAL EYES. REAL LIES. REALIZE.

Honestly.

Honestly, I don't think I'm the best girlfriend.. & whenever I do tell him that he can do better, he tells me that he can't. But I know he can. & the thing about it is that I have such low self esteem. I don't find myself that pretty.. I don't find myself pretty at all.. & even though he told me what he sees in me & even though he makes me feel like the best girl ever alive, I just can't seem to find anything in all of that to boost it up. But as long as I know that he loves me, I'm hanging in there. Babe, if you're reading this, I only have eyes for you (: You're my everything & I'm glad to be calling you mine & I'm also glad that no other bitch got you! But I told you that you're cute (x Because even guys try to get at you. Pwahahaha! My baby is the sexiest thing ever xP

Honestly, I think it's cute how it all began for me & Cris. It's kina funny too, actually. It's also weird, but I wouldn't say weird exactly, some other type of word.. I can't think of it. From to where I was with Florence & Angie by the band room to being on the phone with Cris until 4 in the morning and actually being able to finally call him mine (: It's funny how it all went down. I'd tell you, but it's just so much to say. Hahahaha! Bottom line, me & Cris went through a lot together & look it! We're together now(: & it has only been a week & half, but it happens to feel longer.. Maybe cos we talked for like 2 months & then he finally asked (x & nothing has really ever changed since then. Except the fact that we have the title now. & btw , I did not rush you into it! Pwhahahaha! I was willing to wait till the first, thank you very much! But it's ok. I'm happy with our date; December 11, 2009 around 2:58PM. Pwahahaha! Yess, I know the time. Hahahahaha! But I'm not going to lie, I was gna drop him before he ever did ask me. But because I had this feeling that he likes "This Bitch". Hahaha, Kuya Myles knows who I'm talking about.

& honestly, idgaf if I don't know her, I still don't like her. You're probably like, "well, that's stupid." but bitch, it's cos you don't know me! I honestly don't like females. I do judge & that is a bad thing to do, but if I don't know you, idrc, I still don't like you. I'm not the one that's gna make the first step into getting to know you. I mean, I'm willing to give whoever it is the opportunity to get to know me, because shit, I know I'll blow your mind away xD but if you expect me to give you respect because you're older (when you're like 16, 17, 18) or because you think you deserve it, bitch you is out of your damn mind. You need to be sent to a mental hospital. Shieeet. You're pretty funny for thinking that. Cos with me, if you want respect, you have to earn it. Idrgaf though, yous funny for thinking that. Bitches are funny nowadays. If "This Bitch" is reading this, NO I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU! I'm talking in general. Thank you very much!

It's honestly funny when people think that I'm biting off of them. It's funny how they think that I'm actually really gna go out of my way to bite. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! You make me laugh!

You know

I honestly don't like her. But I hate how I every time I think of her or see her, I get hella pissed. Idk why it hella bugs me. Idek why I let her get to me. I guess that's just something I'ma have to fight through. Continue being strong & continue to set that role Jenn looks up to me for (: There's no way I'm gna let her down!

Get you to the crib, upstairs to the bed.

Just a thought as I washing dishes (; Christmas is in 3 days O.o am I the only one that feels like it ISN'T Christmas? Because damn straight, it doesn't feel like Christmas time at all. Now, Christmas is just another day when you get the excuse to buy people something, open presents, mistletoes, wreaths, ornaments, & foooood (; Basically another birthday house party, but more formal. Hahaha. My thoughts exactly.

So it's Winter Break & so far, it's WACK! Nothing exciting has happened & I haven't seen Cris in like FOREVER D: I hate this.. Haha. Hopefully I'll see him on New Years, if not, that's 2 weeks without seeing him. Fuck! You're probably like, "can't you see him next week?" answer: no, I can't. I have to go to San Jose 28-30 for this Christian Youth Convention thing. It's called Tsunami. I'm excited for it, kinda. But not really. I'm more excited for the parties that Christians can throw. Especially when you're in a hotel. HAAAAAAAAAAAAY! & no, our parties don't revolve around praying every minute! So stop the assumptions! Hahahahaha! But today, I did some what last minute shopping & it was actually fun. Like, we weren't stressed at all whatsoever. Everything was chill & mellow. I saw Paulinna today though! (: & I also got a haircut! I'll post the pictures up so you can see.

My birthday is coming up! WHOOHOO! I'm only turning fifteen though. Geeeze, I'm so young. But I'm happy that I'm still young. Probably because I'm capable of being mature & I'm damn right that I'll blow your mind away if you had a deep talk with me! So don't be a stranger, yeah? (; I don't bite, only if you bite first. Pwahahaha! But man oh man, am I excited for January or what. Tahoe here I come (: Hittin' the slopes almost every weekend! Catch me before I'm goone! Yeee doe cuddy! & lemme tell you, I'm in dire need of a new board & bindings! Get me them & I'll love you forever! ;D

OH! Btw, I'm having a New Years party on New Years Eve. Get there! Ask me for more details! Bring yo camera, toothbrush, & extra clothes, cos if you can't get a ride home, I'm not giving you one. Sorrrry! You can crash at mine (: Already got the parents approval for it. & yes guys, you can crash at my place too! & SAVE THE DATE; JANUARY 8, 2010. Birthday Dinner at Applebee's. More info to come.

No bietch.

Shut cho ass up! You think you is hella cute & you think that you the shit, when honestly hun, you aren't! FTW bieeeetch! (: haha.

Geeeeze, I am meaan. Oh welll (: DEAL WITH IT!

Can't wait to hit the slopes (x

Starting in January, I'ma be out in Tahoe half the weekends there (: catch me before I'm gone!

Sneaker Friendly (;

Them days doe

where the camera just follows me & seems as if I'm being followed by paparazzi (x

My oh my, relationships.

Trust is what holds a relationship together. I've seen relationships fall apart because of trust issues. The boyfriend or the girlfriend gets paranoid when the other is doing NOTHING. They get paranoid because they get so afraid that they'll get hurt. But eventually, the other one then gets sick & tired of it & just call it quits. But I've also seen relationships get stronger because of trust issues. They learn to become vulnerable to the little things they do, so they try to be careful & make sure that they don't make the same mistake they've made before in the past. They do whatever it takes to gain their trust back. They're willing to take the risk of making the relationship work. But whether it works out or not, time doesn't stop for one person, it keeps going. You're probably like, "Yeah, that's so true." or something like that. Because we all know what that's like. To go through the issues of trust. If we don't have trust, we have nothing. If you don't know what it's like, you probably have some type of feeling of what it's like. & it's funny when friends hear about it, they're like, "Why are you still with him/her?" & you tell them that it's because you still love them. I'm pretty sure that's correct, but is love really worth all that hurt in the end? To me & Jenn it's like, no one falls in love by choice, it's by chance. No one stays in love by chance, but by work. And no one falls out of love by chance, it's by choice. It's like you have the option to keep working at it or you just throw it all away & just live your life the way you want to without any delay. We've been giving two hands, two feet, two eyes, but why one heart? Because the other is the one we have to look for. We have options to choose from, decisions to make, & a life to live. Why not live it to the fullest? Whether we're single or taken, make it worth it all in the end. It isn't what you got that makes you, you. It's what you make of what you got that makes you, you. So why not just live life & make it a satisfaction. Even if drama from a relationship or from outside a relationship comes, just dust yo shoulders off like a straight up OG, nigggga! Hahahaha :D

BEFORE HIGH SCHOOL BECAME AN EXISTING FACTOR .

Oh how I miss these days. Just thinking about when things were good. Back to those days of band (6th & 7th), back to those days of being the biggest kid (all of middle school till now), back to those days where high school wasn't a part of my schedule, & back to those days where females weren't taking place in my daily basis.











HEEEEEEEELLLLLL FUUUUUUCKIN YEAAAAAH! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, CAN'T GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS THOUGH, YAAA MEAAN?